I think a lot about who I'm not or who I could have been. What would it have been like to not be constantly obsessed with gaming? Or comics? Or anything other than the life that I want?
What is is it like to take care of yourself?
What is it like to talk to people with an easy smile and to understand why people go to large parties and have a good time catching up with 50 people for 3 minutes at at time?
What is it like to pursue social networking with little to no anxiety? What is it like to fit in in this society and to find success on this society's terms exciting and attractive?
What is it like to be 100% straight and completely comfortable with a traditional relationship?
What is it like to be 100% gay and completely comfortable with non-traditional relationships?
What is it like to sleep comfortably in the same bed as another person?
What is it like to be conventionally attractive with all the rewards and bullshit that brings?
What is it like to bound out of bed with intention? What is it like to pursue a goal with dedication and do something meaningful as a result?
What is it like to live up to your potential? What is it like to live with an identity formed around actions performed in adulthood rather than testing performed in childhood?
What is it like to fit in without changing yourself to fit in?
What is it like to not squander opportunities and chances like you are made of chances?
What is it like to be happy in the ideology/religion you were raised in?
What is it like to not constantly be at war with yourself?
What is it like to be fully somewhere, not half-in, half-out of where you come from to wherever you're going?
What is it like to know what you want and go for it? What is it like to do the thing instead of over-thinking it?
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
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