Windmills

Blog under real name or pseudonym?  New career or old career?  Vanilla or Chocolate?  Evening or morning?  Forward or Backward?  Past, present or future?  Many chances or one?  Doubt or Belief?  Striding into the future regardless of mistakes or sliding into irrelevance under their weight?  Words or white space?  Vocal or mute?  Humble or Proud?  Order or chaos?  What are these circles that I find in the windmills of my mind?

Please stop the world for a tic, I need gather my wits.

Actually, if we could just rewind it real quick so I can have a much-needed chat with my 18-year-old self, that would be GREAT.  Will only take a moment, I swear.